I couldn't think of anything witty, sorry (will probably retitle later)

      Hello. I set up the pictures in this post on Monday but I didn't feel like posting then so here goes:

It's an eclectic mess, I know. So I've been learning Love is an Open Door in Danish... I have a bit difficulty with that, but I got curious about the opening remarks made by Anna and Hans because to English-speaking ears, it sounds like they're talking about skirts. So I went to Google Translate, not expecting the best translation but wanting a basic idea, and translated the word skørt (pronounced just like skirt) all by itself and it supposedly does mean skirt. So I typed the whole sentence with skørt in context... Anna's question translated well and is close enough to the original English. Hans's not so much. If you're Danish or know the language, please tell me if he's actually saying he's crazy with crazy or something close. Middle picture is an actual doodle of mine. I made children over the weekend. Cartoon children that is. Their names were cut out in the process of posting on Instagram but that makes it a bigger surprise when I start implementing them in future ideas 😊 And bottom is that new meme going around, the girlfriend vs other girl meme, and I made one related to Frozen because yeah, that is how I treat the other characters. I was happy to see Sven cameo in Moana and Anna and Elsa getting new outfits for the new short coming in November, but I'm more interested in whether Hans will make an appearance in the short and/or the sequel. I know have a problem, do you? I might make another meme from this, or introduce other ones because Taylor Swift's new song has me inspired. Who knows? I also don't know how much longer I will have all this free time to do stuff like this because a friend called to tell me that they were opening positions in the Walmart she works at, I'll know by Sunday if I'll be considered for hiring. I don't plan on being a Walmart employee for long, hopefully just long enough to buy some stuff like SOMETHING TO DRAW DIGITALLY WITH AGAIN, an external hard drive and more usb's, Sims DLC, and save up for other stuff... Hopefully I'll come back with something, doodles or memes, on Friday. 

When will my life begin? (a question I ask myself on occasion)

      Hello, I'm back with more doodles! And they're Tangled characters in my cartoon style! Yay!

Back when Tangled first came out in 2010, I was like, yeah they hadn't done Rapunzel, finally. And then thanks to my sister who is spoiler happy and absolutely can't wait to watch the movie when it's announced, I found out her hair is magical. I was upset that they made that a thing, and I had to find out because that sister I mentioned earlier had to look at a coloring book that Disney released before the movie. WHY, DISNEY? WHY THE SPOILERS? (this is like releasing doll versions of Merida's brothers that you could turn them into bears... I was suspicious of that. Or releasing Let It Go so that I could be tempted to skip over that song while watching Frozen for the first time) But I eventually did watch it and it's a nice movie. It's well written, the characters are developed and there is good character development, Mother Gothel in my opinion is a very well written villain and very well designed. Hans could have been that villain if production of Frozen wasn't rushed at the last minute with its rewrite and new developments. I'm not dissing Frozen or discrediting Hans as a bad guy (you know how I feel), but I am questioning whether he actually didn't genuinely care for Anna and Elsa or if that was just another act of his. On the other hand, Mother Gothel is designed to visibly juxtapose Rapunzel and is an abusive parent in a subtle enough way that it isn't traumatizing to children but still understandable. While young, she is attractive in her own right but she has features like jutting cheekbones and cold gray eyes that belie her true nature, and they had the detail of her aging when she wasn't with Rapunzel. I also love Mother Knows Best. Everyone loves And At Last I See The Light (what a long title), but I prefer Mother Knows Best and I've Got A Dream. Similar with Frozen where I prefer Love is an Open Door and For The First Time In Forever over Let It Go (I got over my initial annoyance with it but I don't want a repeat in Frozen 2). And as much as I did go into a rant earlier this year over Moana, I admit the music is good (it's Lin-Manuel Miranda for crying out loud) but I prefer Where You Are and We Know the Way to How Far I'll Go. I also like how Tamatoa parodies the stereotypical villain and how Te Ka was actually Te Fiti minus her heart and Maui gets forgiven by his former victim. Disney has been spending the past few movies not killing off the bad guy, which is good because that teaches children that people have the capability to change for the better and be forgiven, that it could simply be a bad lapse in judgment that leads them to follow that bad way, which gives me hope that Hans will be back in the sequel because he was the very first in this new trend of not killing off the bad guy. Thinking about how different Frozen was going to be before all the rewrites, I'd love to see how it would have turned out with an evil Elsa but I'm also scared that Hans would have ended up dying, especially since at some point, Anna and Hans had actually gotten married without Elsa's consent (I think) and he was a minor bad guy even when Elsa was evil I think, so unless they did like Snow White and had Kristoff just be a help and not end up with Anna at the end, so it looks a lot like Hans would have been dead, whether it was by execution or Elsa's own hand. That was a long sentence. And since I got on the topic of dying villains, MOTHER GOTHEL IS THE ONLY DISNEY VILLAIN TO DIE OF OLD AGE. She's also pretty terrifying when you stop and think about how she was quick to grab a dagger, quick to threaten anyone in her way, quick to knock out the Stabbington brothers, quick to stab Flynn... She spent centuries cheating death with that magic flower, as evidenced by her outdated medieval dress, there must have been people that questioned how she hadn't aged, people that outright asked her about her age, people that become suspicious of her. She wanted Flynn dead because he knew about Rapunzel's existence and took her out of the tower, she could have very easily killed whoever questioned her long existence prior. Mother Gothel couldn't travel too far from her precious flower, but it seems to me she would have had to be a bit nomadic to keep suspicion from her... I am putting a lot of thought into a villain that ended up dead. It'd be cool to see a backstory for her. I am happy that Tangled got a TV show because, it may not be a sequel or a broadway show, but it gets seasons, and there are more adventures in seasons of a TV show than there are in sequels and Hollywood has become too sequel happy in order to get more bang from their profitable ideas, which tires out audiences and the original idea. I love Frozen, but it's been nearly four years already and they're still marketing it and now there's Moana which is stealing some of the love and then you've got this mini marketing war between Frozen and Moana. *Sigh* ANYWAY, I do have plans of including modern renditions of Tangled characters in modern!Frozen, that is if I ever get around to my ideas that I have for it. Well, hope you guys have a good weekend and Hurricane Harvey doesn't cause too much damage. 

If you can, please check out my Redbubble and Society6. It would help me get back to digital doodles and I could add more doodles more frequently here and to those shops in the future. Redbubble has sales every Monday and Thursday, in case you want to save money. 

Wacky Wednesday

      Hello. So I'm back as scheduled with more stuff. First I present two doodles:

Did I mention that on Saturday I freaked out and went to my grandparents' for a little R&R? No? Well, I did because I found out through Instagram that a friend of mine got engaged and I freaked out so bad all by myself, which I didn't want to. So I somehow thought it was good idea to draw Helsa that day. The day I can make a digital rendition, I'll add the phrase power couple because that was what I intended to do. Elsa was supposed to have a flower crown too but there's no such thing as layers when drawing on paper so I opted for not totally messing up both crown and hair by attempting that. Funny thing is, my newly engaged friend loves Frozen so she'd probably appreciate some related giftart in the near future. The other doodle I did today of an old OC that I have redesigned and renamed to be Isoke. She was formally known as Isis but I think you know what made me change that. She's black and she was among my first manga OCs, so I think it was time to give her some love and revisit her story. I can't explain her background at this present time but I had retired for a good while along with her friends so they're all back in development. And now, I said I'd be back with pictures from the eclipse:

That is a welding mask selfie. We couldn't get eclipse glasses and turned out the welding mask's lens wasn't in good condition so I couldn't actually see the peak of our partial eclipse, but I think I caught pictures of the moon and sun getting in position for it, that's how I interpret those bright circles in the other picture. It was still cool that it actually happened. I hope to see the one coming in 2024 better. I don't know if I'll come back with more doodles on Friday. If I do, hopefully they'll be because I checked out Tangled from the library yesterday and plan on seeing it today. Society6 is having a sale on backpacks and assorted accessories for 20% off with free shipping that ends midnight tonight PT. If you want to check it out and snag a deal, be my guest. I could use at least $30 to get a replacement digital drawing pen (hopefully they'll be available again), and if I can get to at least $100, I could get myself an external hard drive to give myself space for more doodles and the size variations I have to make for Society6 products. Either way, I hope to be back soon. 

A Total Eclipse of the Heart (so cliché)

      Hello! I'm feeling better this Monday because... ECLIPSE!!! It'll be a partial for me but still it made me draw a doodle for today:

Instead of the usual modern!Frozen crew, I drew our American princesses Tiana and Pocahontas enjoying the celestial view. I did this yesterday to make sure I had it ready on time. This was the first time drawing Tiana ever and a first for Pocahontas in cartoon style. I wish I could have done them digitally *sigh*. If you'd like to help me get back to digital doodles soon, Society6 is having a sale that is ending today midnight PT: 20% off everything and free shipping. Below is a sample from my shop:

Redbubble is also having 20% off everything sale so check my other shop with the code GOBACK20. I'll post pictures of the eclipse later along with more doodles so come back Wednesday. 

Saturday Doodle Dump

       Sorry if this looks all weird, I'm posting from my phone. Here are some more doodles for the weekend:

I did bubble letters and doodled my adopted dogs yesterday for today's Clear the Shelters event. My dogs are Cindy the lab mix and Daisy the Chihuahua mix. Cindy had spent a long time in the pound when we got her and she was a steal at $20 because she was pet of the week. Daisy was because my dad realized my mom preferred smaller dogs and still missed our other dog who had died before. And today I outlined a personal project of mine of making this giftart of Aidan. The lines are wobbly and it isn't as good as I would have liked but it's the thought that counts so I hope this kid appreciates the gesture very much, especially since this is one of my brain babies.

And this was a happy coincidence that happened yesterday eating at Taco Bell. I thought this would make a good drawing or writing prompt, taking these sauce packets with their phrases on them and making up some sort of story with them. I'll add more pictures in the future for anyone that's interested and doesn't have access to these. Well, I guess I'll be around. Have a good weekend.

Friday Doodle Dump + adoption PSA (dogs, not people)

      Hello. I'm back with a boatload of "fresh" doodles ("fresh" because I already put them up on Instagram and Tumblr) ranging from OCs of mine to fanart, so here they are: 

Ok, so the very top is a cartoon Tom Hiddleston imploring to Please Save the Children. It isn't really related to any goodwill campaigns, but I may have been inspired by occurrences closer to home (that's between you and me. I'm not saying anything official as of yet, but it's not in my household, I can assure you that), so I expressed my concerns in doodle form. The second is a tiny chibi doodle of my OC Kenta and his, um, cat for national cat day. I don't own cats for a few reasons including: allergic relatives, my dogs hating them, my mom's recently developed fear of them; but I don't think they're terrible pets, I just prefer dogs and stray cats are an absolute nuisance with their constant breeding and free roaming like they own everything. (That's what happens when cat people treat them like gods) Third doodle is Aidan replacing Elsa and, instead of the cold never bothering him anyway (it does and doesn't), it's smoke from burning flames. I didn't portray it here for lack of patience and inability to draw it digitally for the time being, but his castle's aesthetic is Mustafar. Yes, that lava planet from Star Wars III. Fourth doodle down is a crossover chibi doodle of Prince Hans running away from Aidan because, as much as I like him, I decided years back to make Aidan hate Hans for valid reasons. Fifth doodle I definitely remember drawing that one on Monday what with the white supremacist uprising and that girl getting killed for protesting them and their Confederate statues. As a brown girl that would be classified as "black" according to certain racist laws because I do have black in the family background (I'm a white-washed mix that grew up in a Hispanic culture, there's much more to me than supposedly not being white. In the race scale set up by the Spanish in their colonies, I'm a mix of mestizo and mulatto, so you can't really say I'm one race or another), that racism and absolute hatred of people over color really bothers me. It's not politics, it's moral. So I drew my Super Teens being upset over it, especially since Tamiko and Ariana are WOC (aka "not white"). The doodle underneath I drew Tuesday night but didn't post it until Wednesday on Insta and Tumblr because I'm trying a new schedule of keeping social media usage to three weekdays (weekends are a bit fuzzy) because I find myself checking them out of boredom and then getting into bad moods more often. Anyway, the doodle is of a "baby" modern!Hans and modern!Elsa with Hans having his hair combed by someone else at the age of 5 and Elsa looking more like potato Pebbles. Goofy looking doodles, but whatever, the point is I doodled. I spent Wednesday reviving my Japanese lessons and doodling Huey, Dewey and Louie from the new DuckTales. I don't have cable so I probably won't be watching these guys if not through Netflix but I did watch the old DuckTales as a kid so this reboot sounds cool. It seems like Disney is actually doing good when it comes to their TV channels now, what with Tangled and Big Hero 6 getting serialized and reboots like this one. I actually liked Wander Over Yonder but maybe they're making up for cancelling it in this way. Anyway, since I keep getting off subject, I can't really tell you which one is which because they were designed to look identical but their redesigns will make that easier and I like them. Also, I like the one that gets identified as the evil triplet (Louie?) because his attitude is all I don't give a damn with his simple "meh". I've only seen one trailer for the show but I only saw the teaser trailer for Zootopia and already liked Nick. Zootopia is now one of my favorite movies, so there are some things that I don't need to see much of it to know that I like it. People are harder because they're capable of fooling you, Hans is an example of that even though I'm talking real people. 

The next few days are going to be eventful, maybe not for me, but tomorrow is the whole Clear the Shelters thing, a nationwide event of adopting pets with the added benefit of waived or reduced fees (not sure which) and Monday is the solar eclipse for the "U".S. I have two dogs that we adopted and I believe that no dog or cat should end up abandoned at a shelter but I also believe that you should do research and not impulsively get a pet because it's "cute" or "cool". I didn't have a dog until I was 13 but I was looking up information on different dog breeds and watching Animal Planet shows back when they had dog training shows and stuff a couple years before, it boggles me when adults don't know anything about dogs or buy puppies and later on give them up. Do you have a baby just to give it up later because it was a lot of work or you realized you raised a brat? You do that and you're considered a horrible person/parent, so why is it ok when it's a dog? Dogs aren't babies to be spoiled, they have needs and training is one of those needs. I implore you adopt IF you are willing to make the lifelong commitment, do the research and necessary training and can provide their basic needs and a happy, stable home. Don't adopt just because I said so, a dog is a responsibility that not everyone can deal with. Heck, there are people that shouldn't have children but they do. And I do want to witness the eclipse but I don't have the glasses and I have to momentarily lock up my dogs so they don't hurt their eyes that day. Hope you guys have a good weekend with no more terrorist vans, nuclear missiles or a**holes thinking they can do everything better than you while sucking all the while. 

Flower Crown Friday + Free Coloring Page

      Hello. Today I thought I'd add a little to my Society6, especially with the new backpacks, and I ended up doing a little editing to one of my doodles with only a mouse and ended up with this:

The top one is a coloring page specifically for you to use, whether it's printed out or to add a little something-something to personal images. The bottom one was added to my Redbubble and Society6 shops. Yes, it's Hans's flower crown from that doodle I made earlier this year, minus Hans, and I finished it with only a computer mouse. It was difficult finishing the petals because I'm not adept at drawing with a mouse especially since I'm lefty and I use the mouse like a righty. I cheated pen pressure by fiddling with the brush settings. I don't plan on doing this kind of thing again, so enjoy this tiny piece of digital art from me. Till next time, I don't know if I'll come back during the weekend, so have a good one. 

Some OC doodles that come with a rant

      Another week and I actually feel like crap today and well, last week I took a micro break from social media and it looks like I'm gonna have to take it again because my Instagram habits have changed since I stopped following 9gag, and scrolling through explore involves coming across random pictures of random people and what they're doing in their lives and it makes me feel bad about my own. Also, I don't think Tumblr is adding to my happiness but instead adding to my feelings of failure. Ugh, what an intro. All I wanted to do was present an old project from earlier this dumb bummer summer that isn't even finished but I don't know when I will finish it with these moods so I scanned it now: 

Basically just tweaking Aidan's design a bit. I'm not so sure about his casual hair, that's liable to change when I figure out what I want exactly and practice it more, but yeah. The day I can do digital stuff again, I'd like to take his Hothead form down in the lower right and make it into a bookmark, for me first and if anybody even cares, then I'll offer them for sale too. I need to do this for my other OCs as well, but I started with Aidan cuz he's my Irish boy (so is Mike, but Mike's American) and I've been fascinated with Ireland again. 

I am really starting to have these feelings of worthlessness, failure (especially in how my life is nowhere near what I wanted it to be), and being trapped. I think what I need is a drastic change, a change I can't afford because I have no money and my family can barely afford everything we've got, much less help me out with my emotional needs. So, as much as I want to move out because I don't think my current surroundings are helping me and contributing to my emotional turmoil, I can't. I am trying so hard to not let it bother me but it just does, and isolating myself may not actually solve my problems but having to hear news of weddings, supposedly happy couples, baby news, that sort of thing brings me down because it's something I've wanted for a long time but I don't have it. At all. I create all these fake people with fake stories that have happy endings but I am feeling a lot like I won't have one. I really do not know what to do. I can't get a job even though I fill out applications to starter jobs like Publix and Target. I couldn't get an online savings account. My love life is nonexistent, or as the FRIENDS theme says, DOA. I have issues with the passing of time and my age because of all the nothing in my life and then people I have known for years ask me about school. Excuse me? I left school a long time ago. I already graduated, I just didn't throw a party like I wanted because my dad had to go and break his stupid elbow that summer. I stopped liking school when I was thirteen, so I made no plans to continue schooling and it's rather insulting when people ask me if I'm out of school or if I'm ready to go back to school. That also points to them thinking I'm much younger, again insulting because I am legally old enough to drink alcohol. My mom tells me I have to wear makeup in order to get a boyfriend and for people to stop confusing me with a teenager but I don't care for makeup. It looks pretty and all, but I don't care for putting it on and putting on a fake face just to impress people, especially men. I did the bit of ironing my hair on a regular basis and looking pretty for a guy, and the IDIOT would compliment me but then he got himself a girlfriend from Orlando. He's not with that chic anymore but he found himself someone else again. And then another guy that I realized I liked this year? I sent him a message asking him to explain his behavior around and towards me and he tells my dad that marriage is not his goal at this present time. Was he going to date my dad if he was interested? You see why I feel the need for a drastic change? I'm not happy with my life the way it is and there are too many reminders. 

I am so sorry for the rant but when I tell my mom, she just gives me the same old advice and making me feel like it's all my fault, and I feel like I have no friends so who else am I going to tell? Also, it serves as an explanation for erratic behavior since my emotions are erratic. If I could snap my fingers and end this misery, I would. I hope you are doing better off. 

Splat Saturday

      Hello. Desperate times call for desperate measures and today I remembered to post new stuff that I doodled recently. Almost this whole week was devoted to drawing Off the Hook from Splatoon 2 and getting Pearl right, so here's the end result both with and without filter:

I drew Marina first and then I had to erase and start over Pearl a couple times. That is as close a likeness as I can get for now. At first, Pearl's "smug" face threw me off because she looks so aggressive and capable of murder (that may have influenced how I drew her) but after seeing more of her on YouTube and the internet in the form of game screenshots and fanarts, I kinda like her now. I love the Squid Sisters for their J-Pop quality among other things, but I also like that Off the Hook isn't a copycat and don't treat Callie and Marie like competition. Also, the irony in their designs: Marina wears a skimpy, revealing top but is super shy and a touch awkward with some possible anxiety, and Pearl is dressed in a girly yet equally tomboy fashion but has a rapper persona. Not to mention that an Octoling has become a pop sensation among Inklings and works so closely with one without problem. Off the Hook is akin to Nick and Judy from Zootopia, natural enemies that overlook their differences and become friends, and I love it. To be clear, I don't ship them, I don't really ship Nick and Judy, I just like the idea of their friendship. 

Ok, so this week has been something of a trainwreck. My feelings overtook me early on and I decided I should take a break (a short one) from social media because aimlessly exploring through Instagram helped me feel worse about myself. My break was a bit short-lived because I checked my emails and my blogger here (😄) and I found a disturbing trend of my Tom Brady meme getting popular again and getting views from ESPN. Why, out of all the stuff I've made and made public, must that get popular? Why is ESPN showing up as a traffic source link? I know there was apparently Tom Brady news recently but I don't pay attention to sports because I don't really care for sports. I made a comment recently that if they say exercise is so good for you, why do all these athletes get injuries? And then today my dad injured himself. Fell off his bike while cycling with wannabe Tour de France winners. And they ran over him with their fancy carbon fiber bikes. And they called an ambulance for him to go to the hospital. My dad is battered and bruised along his left side (he usually injures his right) with visible blood on his knee and a hidden lump along a side and is currently in no condition to go to work Monday. With that in mind, I'd like to raise some money, even if I don't hired anywhere (my only reasons for caring are lack of money and makes me feel like I'm not good enough, but other than that it's no skin off of my back), so anyone interested in purchasing anything from my Redbubble would be helping me out. This is wishful thinking, but if I make more than is necessary for this event, then extra will go towards my personal use (new equipment for digital doodles...). I opened a society6 too but I have to verify my identity through Paypal before adding art and it requires $1 that I do not have at this present time so that's under construction. I hope you guys are having a better weekend, not that I'm feeling bad about anything because I did volunteer work today so it's only a cloudy day mentally. I wish you a good weekend.