Fall Chernobyl (an OC of mine, not the destroyed Ukrainian town)

      Hello, I am the idiot that intended to post this in April finally and instead I pulled this stupid move of leaving it in my drafts and forgetting about it again. 

Do I really need to explain a speedpaint? Maybe, but I don't feel like it... except that I do regret that bright pumpkin color I used for the background. Other than that, might not have really changed anything else. I have noticed that my style has changed some since these chibis so hopefully I'll make some new chibis to show you what I mean. Till next doodle (or post... whatever) toodles.

P.S. I am fully vaccinated now and I hope that we can get more people around the world vaccinated soon so that this disease can stop being a problem.

Belated Earth Day Isoke

      Hello! I drew something for Earth Day/a contest so here you go:

I drew one of my OCs here for this occasion. For anybody that doesn't recognize her or happen to have stumbled across this post with no context, this is specifically my OC Isoke. A long, long time ago, I created this character but her name was Isis back then. Fast forward a few years ago when this character along with her cohorts had already been conscientiously shelved because I simply wasn't coming up with ideas for them and the terrorist group ISIS becomes prominent. I said "guess I have to rename a character." And then I did. And honestly, Isoke is a much better name for her because as much as Isis as a name is of African origin and a pretty sounding name, the history of whitewashing ancient Egyptian civilization has made the name Isis sound more like a "white girl name" when it shouldn't be. Not hating on anybody that has chosen the name Isis for their child/themselves but I gave Isoke a Nigerian background instead of a "being descended from Egyptian royalty" backstory and wanted to distance her from extremists. And I saw Isoke in a baby name book and liked it so there. Her cohorts have been getting renamed too, I'm just missing one and then I have to move on to the last name stage. 

Ok, now about the drawing. I wanted a softer look to this piece so it is experimental in that I barely added lineart and some features were painted in with the watercolor brush in MediBang. There was going to be a background with a cherry tree and other assorted flora but I didn't like how it was turning out and deleted it. I like how simple this piece looks, 10/10 would do again. I'm nearly done editing the speedpaint for this to add to my YouTube but this time, I changed what program I used to screen record (went back to the one I used to use because it does not awkwardly condense videos longer than five minutes) and this program allows me to "pause" recording and I have to edit that out so I'm watching all the videos beforehand to know where I have to edit. It's gonna be a long speedpaint unfortunately because I take longer on larger drawings and I don't thumbnail ahead of time like the trained professionals do so any time you watch one of my speeedpaints (if you do), you're also watching me make decisions on the fly. 

Well, I have another speedpaint project I would like to do sitting on the back burner, I am still working [very slowly] on that comic of mine, and I have in my drafts two speedpaints that were already posted to my YouTube so yeah. I might post one of those tomorrow but until next doodle, toodles.

Comic Preview!!!

 

      Hello! It is time for me to make my announcement that I kept teasing for months now... I've been working on a webtoon and here is a little preview:

I accidentally came up with this OC last summer and next thing I knew, I was writing out a story and in November I started with the actually making a comic. I still have a lot of work ahead of me partly because my depression has not been making it easy for me (when does it?) and for that reason I ask you be patient if you are interested and also that absolutely nobody go and steal this and post it somewhere as their work. I've been considering creating a patreon and posting there as I go finishing portions until I am ready to post to webtoon but idk, I'm hesitant to. I should probably start a twitter too but I don't feel like getting into more social media, I already find it tedious to check my own personal Instagram account so yeah. And with that, I bid you adieu until the next time I return. 

Fall Hercule/Puissant speedpaint

      Hello. I am very quickly sharing that I have finally gotten around to editing and uploading a "new" video to my Youtube channel so here it is:

Till next doodle, toodles! (Enjoy your weekend if I didn't double post today)

A Belated International Women's Day and Anniversary

 

      Hello. Yes, I realize that I skipped February posting but February was not a good month emotionally for me. Yesterday was international women's day and the anniversary of me starting this blog and yet I forgot to post here💀so let's get to it.

My women OCs! Some of them you may recognize if you've been checking out my blog since... uh... 2014? and you might recognize that this doesn't accurately represent just how many female OCs I have because I have been spending over a decade creating quite a few OCs. And I'm still creating OCs. I think I accidentally projected my mental state on the first doodle by making her look so vulnerable. 

It has been nearly a whole year since I experienced lockdown and two years since I've had an income (I know I quit my job but not like I wasn't looking for a replacement) so it's been affecting me negatively and I desperately need a change. I feel like my whole life needs to be rewritten because the current one hasn't been working for me. Don't know where this was going but I obviously need to talk with somebody and my parents are not very sympathetic with my feelings so I don't even bother telling them anymore.

Well, I might make an announcement soon (I've been saying something about an announcement for a long time) so let's see when I return with more doodles. Till then, toodles.

Ch-ch-ch-CHANGES (I can't even name a Spotify playlist, don't expect any cool titles here)

 

      Hello! No point in mentioning anything about it being a new year when January is nearly done but yes, I am still alive and I thought I'd throw some crumbs at you as proof.

I had been meaning to draw this character with their redesign and so here he is. This is one of my many OCs, Haru Morgan. He used to have dirty blond hair but as time has passed and I have changed stuff around, I decided it was best to give him brown hair (it’s simpler to color) and even changed how I draw his bangs. It was nice working on this cuz I’ve been working on something since November that I thought I would have done by now but depression has me drawing so slooooowwly so just take this. And this:

"I killed Chin the Conqueror." I read The Rise of Kyoshi this week and loved it, so here's some unfinished fanart. I've loved Kyoshi since hearing about her in atla and then when she showed up. She's just *awesome* and I haven't heard anybody hating on her, which is good cuz 2020 brought up some necessary hate on characters that don't deserve it. So, happy weekend, don't go doing anything that would cause a giant woman to show up at your door with a full face of makeup to beat you up (that includes NOT WEARING YOUR MASK! there's still a pandemic) and till next doodle (or if I feel comfortable making any announcements... I feel like that'll happen in February), toodles!

How have people managed to to achieve this in 2020? I can't even do it when there isn't a pandemic

      Hey, hey, hey! It be the end of the year. Sorry I dropped off the face of the earth, I've been working on something that's still not finished. I'm not announcing what it is until next year because I don't know if I can commit to it just yet but I can tell you it's bigger than the usual doodle. Speaking of doodles, I made one to commemorate this crazy year:

Ah yes, the dreaded life comparison that social media brings with the ability to share things over the internet with people you do and don't know. As soon as the pandemic started, I cozied up to staying in my bed while watching wonderful animated shows mostly from Japan (2010 me would be so jealous of how much anime I have gotten away with seeing this year and the fact that I could bingewatch whole seasons) and postponed job searching to not put me or my family at risk. Yet, other people are not putting their lives on pause so I end up in an end-of-the-year depression as usual because all I did this year was survive in a pandemic, become a BTS fan, and cut my hair shorter than my shoulder for the first time in my life. It's grown since June but after the first few weeks, I've been sporting a fluffy, messy bunnytail on some days. Oh, and I created a new set of OCs that I think are my comfort characters for 2020 and have done quite a bit of writing for my OCs. This year has been a wild ride and I just want to get on with life again and maybe actually get somewhere so that I don't feel like a dunce at 30 😭

2020, sayonara.